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My unemployment was approved! I get $141 (this is after taxes are taken out) for the next nineteen weeks which is almost five months which will give me funds until November if I don't find a job. I still need to find a job. As nice as it is too mooch, I need more funds than that if I want to avoid relying on student loans for the next semester.

This does mean that I'll be able to purchase Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. I'll buy it Saturday though. I live in the boonies. I don't want to drive out at 11:30 and then drive back at 12:30. I think I can wait. When I do post my review? Everything is going to be blank, my moodtheme, icon, subject line.

There's also the whole issue of getting out of the house and I still need to call the KMA. I will do that tomorrow when I have Grant. I'll be watching him all day tomorrow and Friday which I didn't realize that I was going to go see Hairspray and OoTP Friday. Ahh well, he's cuter. I'll see it soon enough anyway. I just hope that they're both good.

Dear Financial Aid Website,

My social security number is not invalid. It is a perfectly good number, it just wasn't issued by the state of Tennessee. I've not gotten married or been divorced and it's been two years since I've moved. The number should be fine.

So let it go through already!

I want to have love for you,
Me.


I was got out of bed at 6:30 this morning to take care of Grant. He was fine. I fed him and what does he repay me with as soon as his mother walks out of the door? A stinky diaper, thanks Grant. I let him crawl around after I had barricaded (and it's quite ghetto looking) the way into the kitchen and towards the stairs.

An hour and a half later I gave his his next bottle and then we went for a walk up and down the side of the street because that the great ourdoors is his favorite thing in the whole wide world. He didn't fall asleep and after about forty minutes outside I came in. This old, beat up brown truck drove three times down the street we were walking on. I got the heeby-jeebies and took our butts inside.

I should not have laughed at the boy when he crawled underneath his high chair and got stuck. He couldn't work out getting back over the base so when he'd crawl, he took the high chair with him. The Boy also likes lattes. >_>

I got him to sleep at 9 and then we both took a two hour nap. I heard him wake up once but thankfully he went back to sleep. I got up at eleven but he continued to sleep for another thirty minutes. Then his mama came home just as I was feeding him macaroni and cheese. He's her responsibility now.

And now I have a lot of cleaning to do. I need to clean out my car. I need to clean out my storage cubby. I need to vacuum everything. I need to do laundry.

I'm not going to that place where my sister works to turn in an application because I keep having to run to the bathroom for 'stomach problem'. It's not a lot of fun. I'm gonna go Monday, right after I find out what's up with my unemployment status. I think I should have heard something by now.

And I'm really, really feeling icky. My heart is racing and my stomach is in knots still. It's been this way since I applied for a student loan. I don't like the thought of a student loan but at this point it's my only option.

It might be because I didn't eat much yesterday. I had a double cheeseburger, applie pie and tea from McDonalds along with a bowl of cheerios and a latte. It wasn't exactly healthy. Today? I had cup-o-raman. Not the best thing either.

I've also got to fill out these birthday cards and get them sent off. I think that when the boy wakes up, me and him will walk down to the post office.

I miss my kitty. :(

Charly? How was work today?

I got fired!

And Kassy? You're Captain Jack Harkness does totally rock. And on a similiar Doctor Who thought, some characters are a lot harder to play than they look.

I had a dream about Tonks the other night. Unlike my last one, it wasn't a dream of me reading book #7. I was in the book itself and Tonks turned out to be a bad guy. If this happens I'll be so pissed. I'll be madder than if she dies. Harry? He totally needs to die.

And while I'm on the subject of Harry Potter... Why the fuck aren't there any new pictures of Tonks? We get Sirius, Luna, the Trio, even Lucius (and damn!) but no Tonks. Are we going to be calling this movie Harry Potter and the Inquisition instead of Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix?

So I did get the job at Things Remembered. I was awfully worried beause of my credit. Today I start as ASSISTANT MANAGER with the pay of $8.65 an hour. It doesn't mean much there because we only have three employees right now. However, being an assistant manager looks really, really good on paper. I really don't like retail but eh it's a job. I'll be able to pay my bills this month on time and I'm going to start putting in a hundred bucks each month into my savings account because I don't want to go through this shit again.

If I can save up enough money I might be able to visit Kassy. My tax refund all went to bills and paying for neccessities. Sorry. :(

The job is full time and I hope I get the forty hours each week during summer. I sent off my FAFSA and application to Pellissippi State. My FAFSA form has already been received but nothing from Pellissippi. I am worried. I've applied there before and have not been able to go. I hope they accept me.

I only want to start back at part-time. I will die if I have to take more than twelve hours. I'm not used to it. It's been almost ten years since I've been to school so I need to start back slow. Ideally, I'd like to take an art class, English, and a computer class. I don't want to take math because I have to take two Developmental Math classes. I took it twice, I failed both times and got put on Academic Suspension. If I have to take it immediately I will fail. The hell of it is, I was looking at a new catalogue... They don't even require math as a requirement to graduate. All you have to take is a Math/Natural Science elective. I could take Botany and pass it instead of a math class.

I should call them. Meh.

I've had a bad day.

My morning started off okay. I went and I talked to my old manager at Things Remembered where I had a season job last Christmas as an Engraver. Right now she's hiring for part-time positions and also an assistant-manager. For sure she's going to hire me for part-time with the possibility of being the assistant manager. I'm not going to hold my breath. They check your credit score and mine is pretty awful I'm sure. I want the assistant manager spot because if I have to work retail I'd rather be that than a peon. The bad side being that if my background doesn't check out (credit, etc.) she can't hire me period.

I'm going to remain optimistic about the part time because the job that I have right now, well I'm lucky if I get ten hours a week. It's low paying and it's barely covering my insurance, phone bill, AOL and gas. I've about used all of my tax refund in paying off credit cards and my car tags.

I don't want to consider fast food or grocery stores. I really don't but at this point I've exhausted almost all of my resources. I've tried temp agencies and going back to retail. I couldn't get a really good job at a call center that processes student loans because I got sick at my last job and had to quit. They told me it looked as if I had attendance problems. I'm dealing with a lot of that.

Later in the afternoon I went to my grandmother's, gave her some pictures of Grant, ate some pizza and went to Dollar Store to look for some really, really cheap frames.

While at the Dollar Store I happened to run into someone who I thought was my friend even if we were coworkers at Lane Bryant. I waved and said hello. She scowled at me and looked like Draco's Mom in that she had something really smelly underneath her nose and walked away. I guess when you get fired for not preventing a few associates from stealing, well I guess I kind of deserve it.

I didn't get any frames. I just went home.

Which brings me to the evening and I cannot find my glasses. I need them to drive at night and to see things like movies. I've looked in my car. I've looked at my job. I've called the mall office and see if anyone's turned in a pair. I've looked in my room. I've looked in my house. I can't find them. I had them in my purse for when I went and saw TMNT (I was entertained) and now I have no idea where they are. I do not have the $150 dollars for glasses and a new prescription and it's on my license that I have to have them to drive.

Mom is not sympathetic. She's not going to lend me the money to get a new pair. And I'm irked with her anyway.

I told her what time I would be home. I was early. Before I got there she sent out her husband for food. Did I get anything? No. Bitches.

Right now, I'm feeling very, very anxious and not in the good way either.

So as soon as the washer gets down spinning, I'm going to switch the laundry and then get into the shower. After that, I'll get dressed and crap, switch the laundry around one more time, let the puppy out to pody, and then go look for a job.

My first step will be the University of Tennessee. As I type this I'm currently imaginging fire_and_a_rose to go "Charly! NOOOOOO!" It's for a job where I will be cleaning out dorm rooms. The pass will be around $7 an hour which sucks but the benefits are good such as a paid summer break, paid winter break, paid spring break, overtime, and I think they'll pay for a class or two. I also won't have to work on the weekends except for every eighth weekend where I'll just have to dump the trash out and clean up the lobby.

To do this I must go downtown and pick up a police report on myself and going to the police station always fills me with paranoia. There is no logical reason for this, aside for mailing in a speeding ticket that probably got there late, I've done nothing wrong. I hope it doesn't cost more than ten bucks because if I don't get the job, I'm going to be pissed for having to fork over the dough when I don't have any new income coming in.

After I get the police report I have to go to the UT building downtown which means I'll have to pay for parking. So I'm gonna have to go to the ATM because those parking places down there are fucking anal when it comes to parking. The last time I was there it was 1 minute past the two hour mark and instead of charging me four bucks I got charged ten. I was fucking pissed.

My sister's bed friend, Grant's brother's mother, is the one who put me onto this job. She said I had a good shot but I'm not going to hold my breath.

I hate job hunting.

Thanksgiving was okay. We ate and it was good.

My sister had to work today. I don't feel sorry for her. I've had to work on both Christmas and Turkey Day (I worked for at a movie theater). She was whiny and pissy, as per usual.

Casey, my cousin, did show up with her brat kid. My god, I've never seen a baby that cries for that much and not have any reason to cry other than her mother wasn't holding her. She needed her butt busted and so did her Mom. I'm glad that she is going back to Florida on Saturday. I have purposefully not gone over to my Gram's to avoid her.

I have to work tomorrow and on Saturday. My shifts are short, only six hours and I'll be off by four. I hope I'll be off at four anyway.

I start at Jewelry Television on Monday and I'm really hoping that I'll have Sunday off from Things Remembered and next Saturday. It would be nice to have a full day off before I start full-time.

And that's about it.

I got the job at Jewelry Television and I will start the Monday after Thanksgiving.

The problem? I now have to tell my manager at Things Remembered that my schedual is going to change drastically. She'll have me everyday just for limited hours.

The solution? I can either do it passive-aggressively and leave her a note on my way out tomorrow night or I can speak to her Saturday after the meeting. Yeah. It's not going to be fun.

But I got the job!

I will not, however, get a paycheck until December 2nd.

Tomorrow I start at Things Remembered. For those of you not familiar, it's a place that engraves things. It's kind of pricey. I'll be engraving. It's part-time, seasonal and only pays $6.50 an hour but at this point anything is better than nothing.

Jewelry Television made a job offer to me. Friday through Tuesday, 1 - 9p.m. From 1 - 3 I'll make $8.00 and from 3 - 9 I'll make $8.50. It is full-time and I'll have benefits starting the first day of my fourth month. This is all contingent on my references checking out. If it checked out for Things Remembered, I have to hope that it works out here. I hope, I really hope. If so I start training on the 27th of November, the Monday after Turkey Day.

This leaves me with a bit of a problem. I didn't tell the lady at Things Remembered about this job. I didn't want to turn it down and then not get the job at Jewelry Television. That would be my luck.

I wouldn't mind a second job. God only knows that I need the money except the last time I worked two jobs I was pulling over sixty hours a week and I was sick and tired all of the time. I did not have any time for myself to get my chores done (laundry, picking up room, cleaning, etc.) let alone have any time where I could just sleep in

So, if I do get this job, I'm left with telling her that I still want to work there at T. Remembered. However, there are some stipulations. I can work anytime up until 12p.m. Friday through Tuesday after my training, I can work 6:30p.m. and after during my week of training. The mall can open as early as 7p.m. so that's not an issue. Ideally, I'd like to keep Wenesday and Thursday open. However, I could give her one day but for no longer than a four hour shift. There are a lot of stipulations with that.

And my Uncle, his new wife, and baby are up in Knoxville for Christmas. They'll more than likely be here until May or June because her Visa is good for six months. I like my Uncle but I do not love him. I rang the doorbell Saturday and he came to the door, glared at me and said, "Baby is sleeping." I wanted to flip him the bird and tell him that if he ever spoke to me in that tone he'd be eating my teeth but as my Gram was in the room, I could not.

He takes my Gram for granted and just doesn't care that it's expensive as hell to put him and his family up. He's supposed to get a job and help but the last time he did that he only contributed $50 and he made ten times that.

The house is too damn crowded. It'll be even more crowded when his other daughter comes up and I can't stand Casey most of the time. She's a spoiled, rotten brat who has never had to mind. She'll be brining her daughter with her too. Then my Aunt will be coming in December along with her eldest son and his wife. So I might benefit from working two jobs just as an excuse to not have to see them.

Speaking of my Uncle's new baby, Sophia, I don't feel anything for her. This kinda scares me a bit, but I don't feel any great effection for. She's cute. I'll hold her and I'll play with her but I don't feel anything. I don't look forward to seeing her when I visit. It's troubling.