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Yeah. I'm sick.

I was fine this morning. I was upset about having to fork out cash that I don't really have to renew my license but I wasn't sick. After I get my license, I come home and I haven't eaten anything (which is a bad habit of mine to go for long periods without eating and then binge) so I have a bowl of cereal.

After that my stomach starts to feel gross but I ignore it and take Grant down to my grandparents. I get halfway there and I get a coughing fit. It's after that that my head starts to hurt as does every other part of me. I lay down at Gram's and take a light nap but that doesn't make me feel better. I run a fever. I feel dizzy.

I took a lukewarm shower and I feel a bit better now.

Ugh. I feel so gross and I'm having a raging hot flash at the moment.

But barely.

I'm no longer spewing things from both ends, it's just my bottom end now.

I'm not running a fever but I'm still having hot and cold flashes.

My eyes look gross. They are surrounded by red blotches and my left eye has a giant red streak.

My head feels like it's in a vice.

My back hurts.

My legs and neck hurt.

I feel exhausted.

In short, I feel miserable.

Did you know that a twelve-pack of soda cans will explode if left in the trunk of your car and temperature gets cold? Well, they will. I'm out of Diet Dr. Pepper. No. I should be drinking water and tea but it's not what I want.

Today I went and got the results from my blood tests. I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism.

Fina-fucking-ly! I knew something was wrong. It wasn't in my head. It couldn't have been just sugar (but we'll get to that).

So yes, I have a prescription for .025 mg of Synthroid. My grandmother is on. She said she lost weight when she was on it. Losing weight would be good but I'll settle for not feeling like crap every single day. I'm tired of the anxiety, the depression, my hair falling out, and everything else. It's not just in my head.

In three to four weeks, I will have to schedual another round of blood tests to see if the low dose is working for me. Fine. I'll find a way to pay for it.

Because the hypothyroidism could explain why my sugar is bad. My starting out sugar was really good but apparently I should have processed that bottle of sugar water in two hours. My body produces insulin but produces too much and in a way that's very inefficient. She told me that if I kept going on like I am I'm going to produce too much and become a diabetic who has to take insulin shots. DO NOT WANT!

So that means cutting sugar and cutting a lot.

The way she was talking to me, I think she wants me to go cold turkey because she said eventually I could have grapes. No Splenda. No any kind of grains or cereal. Lots of protein. No apples. No grapes. No juice. Eggs for breakfast. Protein like tuna for lunch. Soup and salad for dinner. I can have more meals than that if I want but cut the carbs.

That is going to be so hard!

Sara? I forgot to get a copy of the results. D: I did ask her about the levels. She said for a person my age it should be 1 and I was at a 9 point something.

So tomorrow at 8:30 am I go into this little walk in clinic, will have four vials of blood drawn, will spend $150, and then will wait for the results. It will check my blood sugar levels and check on my thyroid.

I have to fast for this but it's not to bad. I just can't eat or drink anything after 11pm. Food? Okay. Drinking? It's going to be hard considering that I'm coughing a lot.

I can appreciate the need to check my sugar levels. My grandfather is a mild diabetic. I am overweight and I know that I should cut it. I should eat better. I know this.

However, the more I think about it, the more that I'm put off that this nurse thinks that all of my problems are related to sugar. I can give the benefit of the doubt (especially where my ankles and swelling are concerned) but she seemed so dismissive of everything that I said. I don't know if she just looked at me, saw that I was fat, and when I told her how I felt, she said "OH SUGAR!" I don't know if this is just laziness on her part or what.

When I mentioned that I got sick after drinking four sips of a pina colada, not once but twice, she told me that they have a lot of sugar in them. Excuse me. I had around four sips in less than a few minutes time. You're going to tell me that sugar set in that rapidly when I drank an entire toffee nut frappuccino from Starbucks without getting sick and then a small chocolate/butterfinger blizzard another day without any symptoms.

So you're honestly going to tell me that those have less sugar than four sips of a drink? I really don't think so. I really don't think so when someone else, in my Kitchens and Bath class, said that they also were on medication for their thyroid. I asked if she ever had any problems with drinking with alcohol in it and she said yes. She described exactly what I went through except she managed to get through her entire glass.

I have nine out of sixteen of symptoms.

If this test doesn't pull anything I don't know what I'll do. I'll have a copy of it but it's not like I can afford to do anything else with it. They don't discuss results over the phone and if I have to pay for a visit to get the results, well I'm fucked.

My student loans are being delayed because EdAmerica doesn't have the money and they have to get a line of credit from the government. I haven't yet found a job and my mother doesn't have the money either (not that I would ask).

Meh.

I was given a ten day supply of antibiotics and a five day supply of steroids to use if the swelling doesn't go down by Sunday. It's either dental or it's allergies. I asked about a possible thyroid problem and she said maybe but it was probably a sugar problem. Meh. I go in for a few blood tests next Friday. :(

It's too bad antibiotics won't work on Con*Crud.

It's a shower for me and then I'm off to the walk-in medical clinic. Since Tuesday, a tooth has been hurting a little bit and yesterday I could feel a bit of swelling. Today? The swelling is noticeable and I'm having difficulties opening my mouth all the way. It might be an abscess.

I can't afford to go a dentist. I can barely afford the walk-in clinic and if they do any tests that's going to have to be put on a payment plan.

If my mother wasn't pushing me, I think I'd be putting it off, again.

Again.

Same damn symptoms. I wake up coughing horribly, get cold chills, run a fever though this time it's not 104.4 at least it's just 101, try to sleep but just end up laying there for a while and then feel like complete and total crap.

It's come down now.

It's the same thing that I normally get late at night I got in the middle of the day. I was in art class and I started hacking up my lungs. Then that subsided and I started to get cold and I was shaking. When class ended I want to my Gram's because I thought I just needed to lay down.

On my way there I didn't run any AC and I had my windows up, I was that cold. I ended up laying down underneath four heavy blankets and a hoodie, still cold but I managed to sleep. Then my grandmother came in after 4pm to take my temp. 104.4!

She made me get in the shower. Honestly. I love my grandmother and I know she wanted to take care of me but I just wanted to sleep. I got in the shower and that's when she told me that she was taking me home because she and Pop were going to look at a house.

I did not want to go and that 50 minute ride was one of complete and total misery.

My fever is down to 101.3 which is good I suppose. My head hurts.

My back will not stop hurting.

Ever since I had that stomach bug that weekend before my birthday my back has been giving me problems. I can't do a lot without it hurting. Mostly it's just a dull pain but if I move a certain way such as turn to look to see if I can merge or when I have to roll over to shut off the alarm clock.

Just now I jerked and the motion caused me to yell out involuntarily because it hurt that bad.

It's not getting better. Right now the pain is mostly right in the middle of my shoulder blades but every so often it creeps down and then it creeps up into my neck and then it moves to the front.

My birthday was Monday. No cake. One card from my grandparents. Meh.

It didn't help that I've been sick for the past week and since Monday I've had another illness that I'm guessing is either acid indigestion or frequent heartburn or another similar ailment because as soon as I started taking Pepcid AC and Tums I've felt remarkably better. My back still hurts though and it hurts in odd places when I cough.

I've gotten my wig for D*C along with a mesh thing to wear under it. When I've compiled my outfits and feel not so rediculesly tired, I'll take pictures.

Edit: I forgot to add that I got sick again on Monday after eating a hamburger. It was a bit pink in the middle and it had a tomato. That might've been it.

Stomach bug you are not my friend.

So much for refusing to get sick.

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And I have this laptop: http://www.pcmech.com/article/hp-pavilion-dv6000-notebook-review/

How much do you think I should resell it for?

I paid close to $800 when I bought it late August/early September. (I bought it at Staples and they overprice.) The price has come down since then. I have all of the accessories, some even are still in the original packaging. I have all of the paperwork and stuff. I only used it when I was at school. The plastic is still on the lid.

There is a problem with the battery but I'm not sure if it's just a problem with this model or not but it doesn't always charge when it's plugged in.

Thoughts?

Yesterday I was sick.

Today I am sick.

What is the difference? Yesterday, I did not have classes. I'm going to miss all of mine today. Lovely.

I feel sick.

Waking up in the middle of the night and coughing to the point where you almost throw up is not fun. Neither is getting the chills.

I feel awful.

Also, Kassy. You really do need to watch the Friday Night Project with John Barrowman. He's in drag.

Edit: He also shows his ass. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVKCAO10XkI&mode=related&search=

I don't want to get in the shower. I don't want to go to work. I would just like to sleep please and stop feeling gross.

About noon I started feeling sick, like diarhea sick and so I went but it was different because on my left side my back was a knot of pain and it traveled all the way to the front. So I got a shower anyway and tried to go to work. I didn't make it. I pulled over at the Target and camped in the bathroom but I didn't go that much. My back just hurt worse and I got dizzy.

Well... I called in and then my stomache started to hurt. Stupid me, I was hoping to god that I was just hungry. I wasn't and I didn't make it.

I am tired like woah.

And now I may possibly be fired because this makes two absences. I hope it's not the flu because I don't want Grant to get it. At the same time I hope that it is so I can expose everyone at work to it or at the very least get a doctor's note.

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Holy WTF Batman! Athena! NOOOOOOOOOO! I was not expecting that. Seriously. My fellow BSG fans will know what I mean.

I hope it's not the flu.

I woke up yesterday morning feeling nauseous. I hope it was just from not eatting but it wasn't. I threw up everything that was in my stomache, mostly tea and water. And if it was coming out my top end it was coming out my bottom end. That went on for all day yesterday. I couldn't keep anything down. Not even water or even pepto.

I finally stopped puking after dark but it's still coming out the other end. :(

Today I am ten kinds of achey. I'm either sweltering or I'm freezing, there is no middle ground. I feel exhausted and my head hurts.


I have to work tomorrow. My next day off won't be until next Wenesday. I can't miss any days while I'm in my Transition Period. If I do, I 'll get fired.

I'm going to try and get up early and go to a walk-in clinic. HOpefully, they'll give me a note that says I have to stay out until next Monday.

Elswise, I'm going to have to tell me supervisor that I think I have the flu and ask where do they want me to sit for maximum germ exposure.

Ugh. I hate being sick.